Today's been interesting. I went to my religion + glaciology class. It sucks when you're sick and you have to miss a day of class to come back and find out that you have a test coming up (when you don't look at the syllabus regularly). Now, I'm not afraid of the test itself...it's just that I want to be really prepared. So...I will be doing some major studying tonight.
In the meantime, I will be working on my art installation. I have to create the doll out of this floral material that I have. It's really cool. And, I have to make four plaster molds for a mini-project my sculpture professor assigned our class. I'm excited about it, because I found four really quirky molds to use. I shall upload pics of both projects soon so you guys can see what it is that I am doing :).
But, yeah...I'm liking my blog and its simplicity. I couldn't think of any great idea for a layout. So, I decided to give that a rest. I don't know if it is the name of my blog that I feel uninspired by or I just haven't exposed myself to new things to feel inspired by. It's a process though...And, I'm trying to figure everything out.
HOWEEEEVER...I've been thinking lately, about stuff that I shouldn't think about. Things that I am confused on, people that I am confused about...situations that have occured in the past with certain people. Like, I find myself playing out why certain things happened with past friendships or relationships..trying to compare them and make some sense out of them. As I do feel stronger from these events, it still feels weird that things turned out the way that they did. I wonder why some people reflect on past relationships even when it was obvious that they weren't good for them. I mean sure, I've thought about the "great" times, but it seems like there were more cons to them than anything. So, I've been asking myself is it the person that I miss or the what-if scenarios that keeps playing over my head. I think it's mos def the "what-if" scenario. Just thinking what-if I took initiative and quit things earlier. But then, I don't think that I would have learned the same things that I learned when I did quit things at that specific time.
And it's crazy...because the video playlist is just a rough-draft of all of the emotions that I went through while after that post-quit process :). Ultimately, I feel like I took control and set myself free from something that I just couldn't handle and wasn't happy with. But, I assume that its normal to feel these post-quit feelings haha. I'm just really happy to understand what it is that I deserve and how to deal with a relationship with someone that I actually like, and figuring out if they are the right person for me...And, that's something that I am enjoying as I talk to my new friend ;) haha. But, YOOOO. that's for another story.
In the meantime, I will be working on my art installation. I have to create the doll out of this floral material that I have. It's really cool. And, I have to make four plaster molds for a mini-project my sculpture professor assigned our class. I'm excited about it, because I found four really quirky molds to use. I shall upload pics of both projects soon so you guys can see what it is that I am doing :).
But, yeah...I'm liking my blog and its simplicity. I couldn't think of any great idea for a layout. So, I decided to give that a rest. I don't know if it is the name of my blog that I feel uninspired by or I just haven't exposed myself to new things to feel inspired by. It's a process though...And, I'm trying to figure everything out.
HOWEEEEVER...I've been thinking lately, about stuff that I shouldn't think about. Things that I am confused on, people that I am confused about...situations that have occured in the past with certain people. Like, I find myself playing out why certain things happened with past friendships or relationships..trying to compare them and make some sense out of them. As I do feel stronger from these events, it still feels weird that things turned out the way that they did. I wonder why some people reflect on past relationships even when it was obvious that they weren't good for them. I mean sure, I've thought about the "great" times, but it seems like there were more cons to them than anything. So, I've been asking myself is it the person that I miss or the what-if scenarios that keeps playing over my head. I think it's mos def the "what-if" scenario. Just thinking what-if I took initiative and quit things earlier. But then, I don't think that I would have learned the same things that I learned when I did quit things at that specific time.
And it's crazy...because the video playlist is just a rough-draft of all of the emotions that I went through while after that post-quit process :). Ultimately, I feel like I took control and set myself free from something that I just couldn't handle and wasn't happy with. But, I assume that its normal to feel these post-quit feelings haha. I'm just really happy to understand what it is that I deserve and how to deal with a relationship with someone that I actually like, and figuring out if they are the right person for me...And, that's something that I am enjoying as I talk to my new friend ;) haha. But, YOOOO. that's for another story.
I like the simple things in life to be meshed with crazy. That term is something that I cannot find in a dictionary, let alone describe it in one sentence. I love all kinds of music, mainly hip-hop; there's something about it that connects the people, with the people. I like crystals and I like the thought of traveling and keeping a journal to tally all of the places that I've been. I am on a journey to find myself as I am currently in college; life presents so many different experiences, sometimes it's very hard to keep up with them...Which is why I wouldn't mind kickin' back on a Fall evening, sipping hot chocolate and listening to mos def...reflecting.
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